Hello mis corazones,
I’ve missed writing and blogging so much. This space always reminds me why I started a blog in the first place. I can’t express enough gratitude for having you all be part of my journey on this side of the internet. This blog post is a longgggg one.
As we wrap up July, we only have a few more months until we enter into a whole new year. I’m mind blown as I type this up because time is flying by so quickly.
As I did a self-reflection of the last 6 months of where I was, I can proudly say that I am not the same person I was 6 months ago.
Mental Health & Emotional Update:
Re-wind back in January, I was having a mental breakdown about turning 25. It’s good to know I’m not the only one who has experienced this, but there’s more to it. I was just not happy with myself and not fulfilled with my life of where it was at. I decided for my birthday to go with my sister to Detroit to go see my brother and his family. I had a lot of mental clarity and peace after spending time in Detroit to collect my thoughts + emotions. When I came back home I decided to seek therapy. There had been a lot of anger and frustration I was suppressing for many years which caused part of my mental breakdown.
I noticed some behaviors, patterns, and just my own attitude had changed. I realized that I had childhood trauma issues that I had suppressed for a long time, and they started to show up in my adulthood. As a Latina woman, I didn’t even tell my parents + close friends about therapy until a few months later. Usually in the Hispanic community therapy can be seen as a “white people problem” when in reality it’s an all people problem. Our own parents even have unresolved childhood trauma issues that they might not have confronted yet and unfortunately, sometimes it can be passed down to us. Now therapy is not for everyone. For me, it was a personal choice that has helped me become more self-aware of certain behaviors and creating boundaries. It also has helped me with having healthier relationships in my life currently.
I feel very healed and happy after having a sit-down confrontational conversation with my dad and few other people that had hurt me in the past, but I was able to forgive them and see a whole different perspective of why things happened the way they did. Forgiveness truly gives you freedom and power. ❤️ When we are able to let go of the hurt and forgive others. That’s when we will be able to move into our future and bring abundance. Healing is a form of self-care we often neglect it because we are scared of dealing with emotions that do not put us in a good state.
Bause It Up Podcast Update:
Full transparency I almost gave up on Bause It Up. I was overthinking things and wasn’t sure if this was something I wanted to pursue in the long term. But after remembering the “why” behind Bause It Up. I knew this is something I have to show up for my people. I can’t thank you all for the continued support and love that you have shown Bause It Up. Make sure to check out our most recent episode here.
Career Update:
As many of you have probably already seen on social media. Yes, my journey at Apple has come to an end. I cannot thank Apple enough for helping me fall in love with technology and the impact it had on my life. Working in the Genius Bar team and then being able to work on the social media marketing team at Apple will forever be a career highlight. Never in my wildest dreams did I ever think this could happen, but it goes to show that God truly works in mysterious ways. I recently started my new corporate job this week and it’s definitely been overwhelming, exciting, and all the feels. But I can’t thank God enough for his glory over my life. And for allowing me to continue to pursue my dreams and create space for women who look like me. One thing my mom has always reminded me is that if other people can do it, so can you 🥰
I’m really proud to see the work that has been put in the last 6 months by focusing on healing, self-love, and be content in who I’m becoming. God has a lot to do with that. My mindset is completely different. & Self-love keeps you out of situations that don’t serve you too.
Thank you all for being part of my journey on this side of the internet. I can’t wait to see what this new season has in store. God proves overtime again that his plans are always better than what we have set for ourselves. Have a wonderful and blessed upcoming weekend!
Love Always,
Yessi Bause
